Depression Life and other shit

I've realized after almost 58 years something that I should have known a lot longer.  Life isn't what you say it's going to be. It's what you actually do. 

I was going to rant about shit. in fact I had written a great deal of it. Then I watched the movie Tic Tic Boom and there was a line in one of the songs that said actions not words. I decided to follow that advice. So here goes 

I have 85 more lbs to lose. I want to be able to run a 10k race. I want to be off all meds. (currently on blood pressure medicine) but probably could use an anti-depressant.  These are the facts. They are intertwined to an extend. (the depression is also geography related, more on that later). 

So the game plan is to avoid simple carbs and animal products. Dairy does nasty things to me and simple carbs bloat me. Before I moved from Arkansas to the Illinois Valley I had been a Vegan and honestly never felt better.  I can make all kinds of excuses as to what happened but it all comes back to me and  it being strong enough to with stand the temptations. 

Another factor is my relationship with alcohol. I quit drinking for 103 days again felt great.  When I drink and I don't mean just when I drink to excess my resistance fails and I make bad food decisions. 

The cool thing ablu writing a blog is nobody will read this. Lol