12/25/20
As bad as 2019 was it doesn’t compare to 2020. I am not going to dwell on this but I want to start off with it. Covid kept the world on lockdown. I spent most of the year working from home. My father’s pulmonary fibrosis won out and he passed on 11/8. I lost 50 lbs gained 40 back in one fucking year. Depression has overtaken me and I’m struggling to get back to me.
It’s not all been bad. I’ve taken strides in poker and have done more studying then I ever have. As I get better and try things my win rate actually dropped. I think I went too far the other direction. I feel confident in the direction my game is heading. (The depression didn’t help my win rate either).
On my weight and eating plan. I had to take a long hard look at myself and try to understand how I need to he to get to it goal …
Here is what I’ve learned
I am not good at moderation
I’m either on something or I am not
I do follow direction
I decided on Weight Watchers. I’ve had the most success with it in the past. Also Sarah has lost 75 lbs so far on it. So a few days ago I signed up and paid my money. I can go more into all this later.
I believe my weight and physical conditioning have a direct result on how I think and how I play cards also.
The process for me going forward is to remember that it’s the pattern of my life not the individual item or day that matters. I am a product of all my activities and not the product of my most recent. THIS IS HUGE
